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I’m over your lies, and I’m over your games
I’m over you asking me when you know I’m not okay
You call me at night, and I pick up the phone
And though you’ve been telling me, I know you’re not alone

Ohh I’m over it
Wanting you to be wanting me
No, that ain’t no way to be
How I feel? read my lips
Because I’m so over
(I’m sorry)
Movin’ on, it’s my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first a little bit
And now I’m so over
So over it, I’m so over it

-Over it by Katahrine Mcphee

The drum rolls have died down… the crowd cheers have faded… the smoke is now clear… UAAP Season 69 is officially over. But something tells me this year’s basketball season is one that will go down in history books (well at least on my records that is!). It may not have ended on my terms, but it doesn’t take away all the wonderful memories that it has brought me.

Yes, they lost, but not after putting up a gallant fight. I believe that is something that the Blue Eagles and the Ateneo community should be proud of. THEY NEVER GAVE UP. They fought hard eversince this season started. And finishing the elimination round with a 10-2 win-loss record is no easy feat. That only means that the team has put in a lot of hardwork, a lot of effort, and a lot of heart to achieve that. Maybe they fell short in getting the championship, but in my opinion, they’ve also exceeded a lot of expectations. There were so many doubts surrounding this team before the season. Without LA Tenorio and Japeth Aguilar, you know there’s definitely a hole that needs to be filled. But the team just proved all their detractors wrong. Everyone in the team was a star in their own right. They won their games purely because of their solid team effort. Not to take anything away from UST, I’m sure they worked hard for the title as well, but in my heart, THIS IS THE CHAMPION TEAM.

Guys, thank you so much for inspiring us. Thank you for playing every game with all your heart. Thank you for making us BELIEVE. Stand tall, walk with your head up, you should be proud of what you have achieved. Special mention goes out to my 3 most favorite guys in the team: Zion, Macky, and JC. Zion, thanks for the hustles, blocks, and rebounds. I know you’re often unheralded for those, cause most of the times these stats are just overlooked. But remember that sometimes, these stats are the ones that make a big difference in the game. I’m looking forward to seeing you play again next year. I know you’ll keep on making that difference. Macky, I’ve told you this before, I always knew you had it in you. I’m so proud of you, cause this time you really showed everyone the stuff that you’re made of. I know you’ll do well in whatever endeavor you will choose to embark upon. JC, I know you’ll go places. Any team would be lucky to have you, not only because you have the the talent and the athleticism, but also because of your passion and your big heart. I’m quoting Coach Norman in this, in my heart YOU’RE MY MVP.

After all of this, I know my heart and soul will only shout one thing: ONE BIG FIGHT!!!

happy anniversary…

kahit na hindi mo alam na anniversary pala natin ngayon, hindi naman kasi talaga tayo, ito lang ung unang araw na nakausap kita at nagkakilala tayo.

kahit na sakin lang naman importante ‘tong araw na ‘to, hindi pa rin makukumpleto ang september 29 ko kung wala ka.

kahit na mahirap harapin ang bawat araw lately, hindi na naman kasi tayo nag-uusap at di ko alam kung ako ba ang may kasalanan.

kahit na puno ng katopakan ang mga pangyayari satin, hindi ko pa rin ipagpapalit yung 4 years na nakalipas mula nang makilala kita.

kahit na hindi mo naman nakikita lahat ng ginagawa ko para sayo, masaya pa rin ako na gawin laht yun para sayo.

kahit na alam kong hindi na darating ang araw na masasabi ko ‘to ng personal sayo, sasabihin ko na rin kahit sa frindster blog na lang.

september 29, 2006, importanteng araw to kaya babati ako… happy anniversary to me…

last saturday was probably one of the worst days in my life… imagine putting all of your efforts into something, and you get nothing in return, not to mention the rain pouring all over your face while running to catch that someone in your life, how would you feel? worst of all, your friends won’t even be there to support you. that was definitely miserable for me.

so i stopped to visit my comfort zone to let it all out. it was the first time that i cried so hard for reasons other that my mom. i just felt so bad. its not even about not seeing that someone, its about friends who cant come through when you needed them the most. there were so many questions running thru my mind…. was it really selfish of me to wish that i’d see that someone? why is it that i seem to give my all to people and yet when i ask for something so small, its so hard for them to help me? i mean, when people ask for my help, i don’t care if im gonna be damned for doing it just as long i helped them. but when it’s my turn to ask a favor in return, nothing comes my way, if there’s any, i’d have to beg and plead endlessly before i get it.

for so long now, i’ve kept this to myself, simply because i don’t want any arguments between us. we’re so happy when we’re together, and i would never want to ruin that. but i can’t keep mum about this forever, maybe its time to speak up. and if this means that this will end everything, then id just take that risk.

you know what gurls, what happened last saturday, didn’t lessen my love for you (isn’t it obvious, i can’t even resist talking to you!), i just want to be honest that’s all. im hopin this time you’d come through.

just finished  another tiring night at work… but today i took the time to post, just to let it all out. after all, writing my thoughts somehow is therapeutic for me.

i know, my friends will say that im indecisive. but i made my decision and its final. and even if im still there for him, it doesnt mean that i’ve changed my mind. its just that i know he needs this now, and after all its been too long just to throw it all away. dont worry gurls, coz i know my priorities now.

just got off from work… had a normal day, stressful as ususal but i still had the energy to pass by the cafe and post sumthn here. considering what happened with work last night, i should probably be ranting by now or just sleeping at home. but no, i think im still high coz of what happened yesterday. dont get me wrong, its a natural kind of high ha…

see guys, i heard from a good friend yesterday. what makes it special is that it was really unexpected on my part. here i was watching tv then my phone rings and  i pick it up… and its that someone! hehe. wont mention any names na lang coz i know people will react. we talked for short while lang pero it was enough to make my day. its funny coz there was nothin unusual with the conversation, but for me everything about it was special. i really appreciated the gesture. ikaw ba naman kasi tawagan ka ng crush mo, at di lang basta crush ha… si *censored* pa! panalo talaga. siguro kung papansin lang akong tao, i wouldve bragged about that person, pero im not eh, so mainggit na lang silang lahat! hehe. sarap talaga ng feeling!

you know what i could go on all day about this but im sure u guys would thingk im crazy na so wag na lang. til my next adventure na lang.

well…this is my blog account…. im just gettin started so i dont have anythin to say yet… guys, bear with me coz im not yet sanay with an online journal ok?

but i’ll keep you posted always…see ya!

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